What I want to eat versus what I eat

 

Sometimes I wish I was one of those people who eats to live. Who sees food as fuel for the body. But no. I live to eat. I love the taste of food. Good food is one of life's pleasures that I embrace with gusto. And let's be honest, the tastiest food is usually the worst food for you. Pizza, fries, Taco Bell. Not the best. (Is Taco Bell legally allowed to be called "food" anymore? It's mainly chemicals). I know what you may be thinking, all of those things can be good for you! In moderation. Let me stop you right there. I will never be able to eat just one slice of pizza, as is recommended. IT'S NOT ENOUGH PIZZA.

I have done the healthy eating route, the "lifestyle" change. I lost weight and felt great! But that lifestyle is hard as hell to maintain. Eating is such a social experience. For date night, we go out to a restaurant. Meeting up with friends, we grab a bite to eat. Going to the movies, we have to bring our apple slices, or worse, raw carrots so we're not tempted by the large tub of popcorn that our boyfriend has to get EVERY. TIME. I felt like I was missing out on life with the constantly healthy lifestyle. So I slowly reverted to eating whatever I wanted, and gained the weight back. It sucks, but I prefer fully partaking in life. And for me, eating is a big part of life!

My problem is finding the balancing between enjoyment and overindulgence. Full disclosure, last weekend I ate a fried item every day (fried pickles, onion rings, fries) and for dinner one night I had a soft pretzel (with mustard SO GOOD) and cookies n' cream Dippin Dots. Seriously. That is not a meal, people! And, surprise surprise, I felt awful afterwards. Eat crap and feel like crap. The two seconds that we're eating it, it's awesome. But after that, it's over. And we're left with how our bodies feel. When I eat clean, I feel light and energized. Eating processed, greasy food I feel heavy and bloated.

So now, I'm trying to find balance. I want to enjoy everything that life has to offer because it's short and I'd rather be a little chubby than sit in the corner crying and eating celery (aka the worst food ever). My goals are to make more healthy choices when I can, so I can enjoy the unhealthy choices, too.